Tuesday, October 4
my chinese essay was so boring, i fell asleep writing it. i should have included coffee powder when i submitted my paper huh.
math.. screwed. hahaha. to be frank, i almost laughed when i flipped through the paper, because i knew that it would be screwed. and hell, it was. -shrugs- how exciting, considering econs yesterday. i tend to sleep til 6 plus after my papers and wake up groggy. still have to start studying for both histories. bahhh. wonder if i'll even have time to touch lit. i'm gonna have to depend on hist and lit now to promote to j2 with 3 subs. how exciting. hahaha.
i wish i didn't wish so hard.arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i find myself somewhat hoping i'll get the chance again to lose whatever little ability i ever had to speak coherently in recognisable english. which is silly of me.
it's all about ideals, isn't it? seeking out the one charm and discarding the flaws, in an attempt to make the being fit the mould. but every time you meet another being, the mould changes slightly.. until.. maybe one day it would have fit the very first being, only it didn't then and now it's too late. complicated issue.
still looping the song. fade fade fade away. although it's weird to refer to a guy as an angel. honestly, i can't reconcile the two ideas.
it must've been love.
8:15 pm
xoxo
